Wednesday, November 4, 2009

निचोढ़ !!

सुमुंदर की गहराईथी आँखों में मेरी, तुमने सिर्फ़ रंगत देखि,
सुकरात सी सोच थी खामोशी में मेरी, तुमने सिर्फ़ फुर्सत देखि.....
कहा जो मैंने शायद" ही" वो भी सुम्झा , अनकहा सुमझते तो उल्फत होती
शिकायत किस्से करूं, तन्हाई लपेटे खड़ी हूँ
हर तरफ है भीढ़ पर अंधेरों से अपने अकेले ही लड़ी हूँ
ध्वस्त नहीं है उत्साह , हौसलों में अब भी चढान है
डूबता है दिल कभी -२ आखिर सीने में जिसके है, वो सिर्फ़ एक इंसान है
समेटते हैं फिर टूटे -बिखरे साहस को ,जानती हूँ अथक चलना ही जीवन की पहचान है
रुक कर टूट जाना ये तो सबसे आसान है ...............................
इक खलिश सी उठती है कभी की रास्ता इतना दुर्गम न होता
जो किसी ने सच्चे दिल से मेरा साथ दिया होता
पर वो भी क्या करें मजबूर उसका भी ईमान है
समझा दिया है समय ने, मेरी तरह लड़ रहा वो भी अपना संग्राम है !!!

what world have we arrive family & friends wait for ur status change to know ur plight & then indulge in frivolous..."take care honey "thing, the warmth totally missing.
The connection heart to heart, yes, i'm still strong believer of telepathy has lost its signals among more sophisticated electronic ones which envelops us all round . People ignore till absolutely necessary to get involved in woes of others on whom they technically in very worldly way dote on till absolutely necessary cos they have enough of their own issues to deal with , pretext used here being "giving space."I really wonder if this was the world , i opened my eyes & equally important, is this the world , i'd like to close my eyes on......answer "no" . Then ..what????????
I know only one thing, i cant carry the back-pack of relationships which have stopped yielding anything,I now have vowed to invest only in people who down the line have withstood my tantrums, dealt wid my anxieties, open heartedly embraced me as much as i've been on the other side, in all people who've untiringly loved me with all my folly's & stupidities, i guess it lessens my pain to an extent of not getting back my due in return.
I sound so much like people i despise but i guess its important for my survival now.


sonia's blog said...

You summed it up really well.

Joe said...

Nidhs ... What do I say yaar ...Just want to say you are our voice ...

Nims said...

Nids, wo shuru mein jo hindi chand panktiyan hai wo bahut badhiyan hain. ye jo writeup likha hai tumne ye kahin ka kahin humne mehsoos kiya hai.

malini said...

Wow Nidhi, you have said what i have felt for years now.. what you have written is so sensitive, i really think yes, it is important for us to wake up and realise that this is it.. aaj ko jee lo, kya pata kal ho na ho..
there is no more closeness, no more involvment of people even close in your life, and when i talk to people, i see, hey, they too are thinking the same thing, some of them there too are feeling we are getting to involved in our status messages.. we all crave to meet, we crave to connect, why then, why arent we able to do so.. we need to ponder on this, we need to change the way we are going, this way only leads to further isolation, further detachment, further anguish.. yes but few ppl like you and me who think like this are making a difference by voicing it here.. sigh.. but how many are listening..